Friday, December 28, 2012
Saturday, July 14, 2012
Tuesday, February 14, 2012
*Another Milestone*
For the first time in my life I have a Valentine! A real, true, forever love! I am so giddy, so blessed, so incredibly happy. I am one of those people...high on love and annoying to anyone who isn't. ;) I got flowers for the first time in my life from someone who isn't part of my family or a close friend. And he didn't send me just any flowers...he sent daisies. YES! DAISIES!
What is the big deal you ask? Well...I have always said that the first man who sent me daisies was going to be the man I marry. Today was the first time I ever received daisies, and they are from my love, the man I will marry one day. God has been so SO good to me. He knew Matt was right for me, and I thank him and grandpa for making it happen.
To love, true love and to symbolic love.
I love you Matt with all of my heart for always. <3
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
Monday, July 26, 2010
Sunday, July 18, 2010
*stuff*
heavy heart fueled by a head full of 'stuff' that i just can't shake.
why do i revert to old ways of thinking?
why do i do this or that, or why don't i do this or that?
the calendar says i'm older, but inside i still feel young in some ways.
why can't i just go for what i really want?
why do i have to doubt myself and fear and be insecure?
where is the confidence? even just a little of it...enough to really get the ball rolling to happiness, fulfillment and the feeling of accomplishment?
where, oh where, is the self discipline to do it all, every day?
why don't i do what i know in my head to be the best for me?
why do i sabotage myself?
why do i feel unworthy of being thin?
why do i believe in others but not myself?
when will i get fed up enough to not care what others think of me?
why? when? where?
why do i revert to old ways of thinking?
why do i do this or that, or why don't i do this or that?
the calendar says i'm older, but inside i still feel young in some ways.
why can't i just go for what i really want?
why do i have to doubt myself and fear and be insecure?
where is the confidence? even just a little of it...enough to really get the ball rolling to happiness, fulfillment and the feeling of accomplishment?
where, oh where, is the self discipline to do it all, every day?
why don't i do what i know in my head to be the best for me?
why do i sabotage myself?
why do i feel unworthy of being thin?
why do i believe in others but not myself?
when will i get fed up enough to not care what others think of me?
why? when? where?
Friday, July 16, 2010
*time*
i've been having these odd feelings of life passing me by lately. random moments of near panic that there are so many delicious parts of life that i still need and want to discover that i haven't and then, 'time's up!' i'm not 'that old' even, so it feels irrational, but at the same time i'm also wondering if it's that inner voice saying, 'get a move on woman! life is short. stop being a spectator!'
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